38 weeks

I am 38 weeks today :) Doctor's appointment went well. Still seeing the other doctor, not sure when mine will be back, but I think I will end up delivering with this one. She's very nice and speaks Spanish very well so it was nice of her to include my mom in conversation today. Mom was very excited to hear the baby's heartbeat, she thought it was cute :) I'm only 1 cm dilated and 50% effaced. She said anything can happen. Some women last a few more weeks and others dilate over night so we will see when my little chunky monkey decides to come :) If she decides to come this weekend, I hope she waits until after I walk the stage LOL And if it is this Friday, then maybe we will be home in time for our baby shower on Sunday LOL Right!!!! She will be here whenever she feels like coming and I'm perfectly fine with that :) Everything else looks good, heartrate is at 137 and she is in position. Sucky parts are my feet are so swollen or "fluffy", one always more than the other, I can't be on my feet for too long, I'm soooooo tired, and I'm eating like a cow! I've never been so ridiculously hungry before. I wake up starving although I eat before going to bed. I drink tons of water, but I'm sooo thirsty and I have a sweet tooth like never before. I don't think I eat bad, I usually satisfy my sweet tooth with an apple juice slushy or like 3 yogurts LOL Every now and then I will beg Chris for one of his thin mints. He's let me have a total of two LOL But my Mom bought me a churro and a frozen yogurt the other day and that definitely hit the spot :D I'm filled with excitement, but I'm starting to get very scared. Motherhood is starting to become a reality and I just don't want to mess up. I wonder if I can handle all the demands that come with parenthood, emotionally and physically. Chris reassures me that I can do it, as do many others that I love, but there's always that little voice in the back of my head that makes me doubt myself. I know for sure I'm going to try my hardest to be a great mom. I have after all a great role model :) She's always loved me no matter what I did. Not to mention all the other people I look up to. My daughter will have more than enough people to look up to and I feel very blessed for that. So, she has people that lover her, a roof over her head and a bed to sleep in, plenty of clothes, and food :) * What are you waiting for??? We're ready for you!!!!! LOL See you soon my Little Angel!!!!

♥ Mommy