HAS FINALLY ARRIVED!
She was born May 27th at 7:43pm, she weighed
7 pounds 11 ounces and measured 19" long!
Now, for the horror story! LOL Chris, Mom, and I got to the hospital at 7 am on Friday, May 27th and I was taken to my room to get ready while my Mom and Chris had to wait in the waiting area. I was told to change into my hospital gown and wait for her to get back. I changed, sat on the bed, looked around, then started bawling. Fear completely took over me and the tears just ran down my face. I wanted Chris with me, even though nothing was happening yet, I just didn't want to be alone and I needed him to comfort me. I was so nervous and scared. When the nurse came back, she felt bad and was talking to me to help me relax. Then my doctor came in, Dr. Aspen Smith, and she asked me why I was crying. I felt like such a dork, but they were nice and reassured me that everything would be fine and soon I would have my little Gilly in my arms. Blood was drawn, IV was started, cervix checked (still at 3cm), and finally at about 8 or 8:30 my oxytocin was started and my water was broken. That's when Dr.Smith told me she was glad they were inducing me because there was meconium in my water. Basically, my baby pooped and there was a chance she could inhale it. So, after finding that out, I was glad we had chosen to induce so soon instead of waiting until the following week. Then she explained how there would have to be a couple of people from NICU and a respiratory specialist to check her breathing and make sure she didn't inhale anything. So, naturally I was worried. After that, we just let the oxytocin do its job. Contractions came strong, one right after the other 2-4 minutes apart. Two hours went by, I was scared to ask to be checked to see if I dilated any, wondering if I would just be disappointed. She checked, I was 3.5-4, but I was having so much back labor that I asked for some pain medication. She came back with a little something and put it in my IV, I felt like I had given up a little, but I told myself I could still do it without the epidural. I sat up because I had a contraction, she said you might feel dizzy. The whole room spun and I felt my eyes rolling to the back of my head, then I felt nothing :) It was nice, I fell asleep right away. I felt so drowsy and exhausted. Since I was only at maybe 4, Chris asked if it was ok for him to go home and get a hoodie :) He was freezing. I didn't mind, since I was already comfortable and completely out of it anyway. Sherri came to visit and I felt bad that I was so sleepy. I started feeling the contractions again and they hurt like hell. They were right on top of each other and I felt bad holding Sherri's hand because it felt so tiny, I didn't want to crush it. Chris was still gone and my Mom was in the waiting room with Kaland. My nurse came in and I asked for the epidural. At the time I felt like I had given up. About half an hour from the last check, Dr. Smith came in to check me. I was about 4.5-5. Maybe about 20 minutes later or less the anesthesiologist came in. I hate needles, but I didn't care. My legs felt so numb and heavy. They felt like the weighed 2000 pounds LOL Right after the epi kicked in, my nurse checked me again and she said "She just checked you right now?? And you were a 5?"
"Yes."
"You're at about 7.5-8 now."
Holy moly! LoL Sherri and I looked at each other and I was like "Agh! Call Chris!" She started calling him and he walked in at that point. He was gone for maybe an hour. I had hoped things wouldn't slow down because of the epi, but I think they did a little. It took a couple of hours to finish dilating (I think, I was so out of it). After a bit I was able to feel some contractions so the anesthesiologist came back in and gave me a little more stuff. It felt great. Finally, it was time to push. LOL Sherri had come back and poor thing ran out to get my Mom :) Pushing was hard, I felt nothing. I felt like I wasn't pushing. After a few pushes, the nurse guessed she was facing up instead of back :( I could totally feel her knees on my belly. We tried a lot of different positions, but we couldn't get her head past the pubic bone(?). Since she couldn't tilt her head back the way she was supposed to, I had to push extra hard, but nothing was happening. Two and a half hours of pushing and my doctor told me that we could only push for 3 hours before she had to perform a c-section :( The other choice was the vacuum, and if that didn't work, then definitely the c-section. I was so scared and motivated at the same time. At that moment, about 9 to 11 more nurses came in. Gillian's arrival was definitely the main event. Chris was very supportive, reassuring me that I could do it. At this point I could feel the contractions. I had my eyes closed the whole time, pushing as hard as I could, I heard a loud POP! Then "Keep pushing!" Apparently they were pulling so hard and she was so stuck that the vacuum popped off, but she had it back on her noggin in no time. A few more pushes, then a horrible feeling at the bottom of my stomach (I looked and saw a nurse basically pushing the baby out from the outside, I closed my eyes again and then they said "there she is! you did it!". I could hear the excitement in my Mom's voice, the happiness in Chris' voice, but no crying just yet. I looked down and all I saw was an upside down baby, booty and legs was all I could see. Then they took her away to suction her mouth and check her breathing. Finally I heard that beautiful little tiny cry I had been waiting for :) It was great! I was very upset though that I couldn't hold her right away, but I was glad I had her vaginally. I watched from the bed as they wiped her clean. I saw her little arms and little legs wiggling all over the place. It was great seeing Chris next to her, just watching. After everything checked out ok, they weighed her and measured her, then gave her to Daddy. He didn't let go of her :) Not until about an hour later when they finally finished stitching me up. That part was horrible. My uterus wasn't contracting so I had to get a shot, for some reason she reached inside of me and pulled out my placenta so I was given antibiotics. My delivery was talked about on that floor that night, nurses told me so LOL Apparently it was the hardest delivery they'd seen in a really long time. Kinda scary :/ Anywho, when they finally left me alone, Chris handed me Gillian and I tried feeding her right away. It was really nice to finally be able to hold her, although I was still kinda out of it and everything seemed surreal. I was exhausted and then they kept coming in to massage my uterus so it would contract. Not to mention I was still being given oxytocin to help my uterus contract. It felt like I was in labor all over again. The last time they massaged me I cried a lot. It was extremely painful. Chris handed Gillian to Jackie so he could be by my side. I swear that was worse than delivering her.
Chris wanted me to mention that it was all that he said it would be: a terrible, disgusting process. LOL My delivery was a bloodbath, but I love my Gilly Bean!
* Gillian Rosalie, I am so glad you are finally here. We love you so much! I love holding you and watching you smile in your sleep. I wake up every 2 minutes to make sure you are still breathing LOL I wish you could remember the way Daddy stares at you when you look at him and how he kisses you when you fall asleep in his arms. I can't imagine my life without you. You are truly a wonderful gift from God. I love your Daddy more and more each day and I love watching you become more alert each day. I can't wait to hear your laugh or watch you get excited when Daddy gets home from work. It's been 3 weeks and 6 days already, you've kept me pretty busy, I don't know how someone so little can be so demanding :) You are a VERY demanding little girl. You hate when I change your clothes, your diaper, your position, if I take one second too long to put my boob in your mouth, being in the carseat, pretty much everything. But you do like talking to Daddy and staring at him, you like our curtains, you like when I sing (even though I'm terrible), you like your swing and going for walks in Mommy's arms (even though we've only gone up and down to the corner to get you to sleep), and you like talking to Abuelito and Abuelita on skype :)You make me happy and you drive me crazy. I am truly blessed to have you in my life. You have made us a family and now we are complete (for now). We love you with all of our hearts and we can't wait to see what a beautiful and kind woman you are going to grow up to be some day. I already dread the day :( But for now, I will take everything you are willing to give me, sleepless, fussy nights and all. I love you Gillian Rosalie and I will always be here for you. Te quiero mucho mucho mijita.
Love Always,
Mommy and Daddy
♥♥♥♥♥
"Yes."
"You're at about 7.5-8 now."
Holy moly! LoL Sherri and I looked at each other and I was like "Agh! Call Chris!" She started calling him and he walked in at that point. He was gone for maybe an hour. I had hoped things wouldn't slow down because of the epi, but I think they did a little. It took a couple of hours to finish dilating (I think, I was so out of it). After a bit I was able to feel some contractions so the anesthesiologist came back in and gave me a little more stuff. It felt great. Finally, it was time to push. LOL Sherri had come back and poor thing ran out to get my Mom :) Pushing was hard, I felt nothing. I felt like I wasn't pushing. After a few pushes, the nurse guessed she was facing up instead of back :( I could totally feel her knees on my belly. We tried a lot of different positions, but we couldn't get her head past the pubic bone(?). Since she couldn't tilt her head back the way she was supposed to, I had to push extra hard, but nothing was happening. Two and a half hours of pushing and my doctor told me that we could only push for 3 hours before she had to perform a c-section :( The other choice was the vacuum, and if that didn't work, then definitely the c-section. I was so scared and motivated at the same time. At that moment, about 9 to 11 more nurses came in. Gillian's arrival was definitely the main event. Chris was very supportive, reassuring me that I could do it. At this point I could feel the contractions. I had my eyes closed the whole time, pushing as hard as I could, I heard a loud POP! Then "Keep pushing!" Apparently they were pulling so hard and she was so stuck that the vacuum popped off, but she had it back on her noggin in no time. A few more pushes, then a horrible feeling at the bottom of my stomach (I looked and saw a nurse basically pushing the baby out from the outside, I closed my eyes again and then they said "there she is! you did it!". I could hear the excitement in my Mom's voice, the happiness in Chris' voice, but no crying just yet. I looked down and all I saw was an upside down baby, booty and legs was all I could see. Then they took her away to suction her mouth and check her breathing. Finally I heard that beautiful little tiny cry I had been waiting for :) It was great! I was very upset though that I couldn't hold her right away, but I was glad I had her vaginally. I watched from the bed as they wiped her clean. I saw her little arms and little legs wiggling all over the place. It was great seeing Chris next to her, just watching. After everything checked out ok, they weighed her and measured her, then gave her to Daddy. He didn't let go of her :) Not until about an hour later when they finally finished stitching me up. That part was horrible. My uterus wasn't contracting so I had to get a shot, for some reason she reached inside of me and pulled out my placenta so I was given antibiotics. My delivery was talked about on that floor that night, nurses told me so LOL Apparently it was the hardest delivery they'd seen in a really long time. Kinda scary :/ Anywho, when they finally left me alone, Chris handed me Gillian and I tried feeding her right away. It was really nice to finally be able to hold her, although I was still kinda out of it and everything seemed surreal. I was exhausted and then they kept coming in to massage my uterus so it would contract. Not to mention I was still being given oxytocin to help my uterus contract. It felt like I was in labor all over again. The last time they massaged me I cried a lot. It was extremely painful. Chris handed Gillian to Jackie so he could be by my side. I swear that was worse than delivering her.
Chris wanted me to mention that it was all that he said it would be: a terrible, disgusting process. LOL My delivery was a bloodbath, but I love my Gilly Bean!
* Gillian Rosalie, I am so glad you are finally here. We love you so much! I love holding you and watching you smile in your sleep. I wake up every 2 minutes to make sure you are still breathing LOL I wish you could remember the way Daddy stares at you when you look at him and how he kisses you when you fall asleep in his arms. I can't imagine my life without you. You are truly a wonderful gift from God. I love your Daddy more and more each day and I love watching you become more alert each day. I can't wait to hear your laugh or watch you get excited when Daddy gets home from work. It's been 3 weeks and 6 days already, you've kept me pretty busy, I don't know how someone so little can be so demanding :) You are a VERY demanding little girl. You hate when I change your clothes, your diaper, your position, if I take one second too long to put my boob in your mouth, being in the carseat, pretty much everything. But you do like talking to Daddy and staring at him, you like our curtains, you like when I sing (even though I'm terrible), you like your swing and going for walks in Mommy's arms (even though we've only gone up and down to the corner to get you to sleep), and you like talking to Abuelito and Abuelita on skype :)You make me happy and you drive me crazy. I am truly blessed to have you in my life. You have made us a family and now we are complete (for now). We love you with all of our hearts and we can't wait to see what a beautiful and kind woman you are going to grow up to be some day. I already dread the day :( But for now, I will take everything you are willing to give me, sleepless, fussy nights and all. I love you Gillian Rosalie and I will always be here for you. Te quiero mucho mucho mijita.
Love Always,
Mommy and Daddy
♥♥♥♥♥
